Rearview mirror.

Walked out of work yesterdat, round 2:00…  the walk home felt great, liberation, I saw things clearer, sounds lame but it’s the truth.  Dunno if I still have a job when I get back from my vacation, regardless I’ll be quitting upon my return.  I worked a lot of days at that place, but yesterday was the only day I felt I got perfectly right.

Mychaela

I listen to an audiobook at night.  This one involves Beelzemon (more or less the devil reincarnate) and Rand (a farmboy with the “one” power to fight Beelzemon) And this happens everytime the “wheel turns”, which I take as a metaphor for a new age, Beelzemon is in a new body and so is Rand.

Anyhow, around the time where wake up the book is a about 3-5 hours from ending, so lots of death.  Lately I’ve been Rand, or someone who gets bullied by a greater evil.  Last night, or this morning… mind you I just woke up, it’s 6pm, I was myself and this beautiful woman came to visit me her name was Mychaela (I did a client yesterday her name was Michaela, lol… she was azn) She had a perfect shaped head, black bob, black eyes, her make up was perfect.  I sort of fell in love with her.  So, I think she was there more or less to kill me, and everyone I knew yet when we met she was very nice.  Later she asked me how much I think she hurt my mother and some other questions too which I dont remember - I was supposed to answer on paper.  So I did but I was hesitant to give it to her, I though maybe my answer would determine the outcome for what happens next, after all I didn’t even know if she had killed or hurt anyone yet.  I don’t think I gave her my answers and then I didn’t see her again.  Life was sort of back to normal, I kept wondering about my mom.  I think a friend finally told me “You didn’t know, you’re dead, you and your family are dead…” I kind of froze and considered the possibility of that being true.  It checked out… things were weird, I wasn’t able to leave home (which in my dream is a side affect for dying, you can’t leave your home)  I asked him when I died he said last friday (3 days ago) I told him to leave and I was going to check it out in the obituaries online.  Then I woke up.